Today I realized I am going through Beauty withdrawl.
The snow has melted to expose the dead grass and muck; I can't remember the last time I've seen the sun;
either it isn't here or I can't find it.
I made the honest effort heading out in the car seeking Beauty without driving too far in my misbehaving car. The only beauty I found in three hours of seeking was a solitary finch in a pet store, his tiny precise nails clicking as he jumped from perch to perch, his solid orange bill, his small bird noises. And hundreds of feeder goldfish reacting in unison when I tapped on the glass.
But I was too chicken to take out the camera. So I ended up in Cosco.
Trust me, no Beauty there.
(Although I could have picked up for $19.95 a party in a box which seems quite a find)
In desperation, hunger and realization I browsed the blog picking out my favorites and impressed myself that I generated this many photos (and then some!)
I don't remember the initial point of the blog now, but I credit it with keeping my soul alive by demanding I seek Beauty. Even the act of seeking, finding it and not capturing it today was restorative.
It seems a worthy exercise to continue (if not so strictly!) and something perhaps others should consider -- the daily practice of seeking Beauty.
Look how much there is!
Another year passes. 2005: the year of you coming back to yourself.
And such a journey along the way. You got to leave the country to come back home to America. How cool was that? I am so glad you shared this journey with us.
Chelli
Posted by: Chelli | December 31, 2005 at 08:29 PM